Before My Gaydar Properly Developed by Anna Ferrara

I don’t know about you, but the world seems to be getting pretty (insert your favorite colorful word here) intense. While I like to stay informed, I also like to laugh to deal with stress. And, I need some chuckles these days.

Today, the wonderful Anna Ferrara is here to help us laugh with an embarrassing story. Also, Anna is giving away 1 ecopy of Eritis Mea. Below the guest post, you’ll find more details about the giveaway.

Take it away, Anna.

Before My Gaydar Properly Developed

My funny-but-also-not-exactly-funny-funny moment happened back when I was in college, before my gaydar had properly developed, way before I learned how to out myself to other gay women in public…

It was the morning of scriptwriting class and I was in the throes of a crush on some girl I had only just hung out with the night before so my mind was swirling on and on around everything she had said and done when around me, and how pretty she was, and how clever, and how perfect, and oh how wonderful, rainbows and butterflies… when all of a sudden…

… I was forced out of my daze because the professor—who was about ten years older than me and really ‘academic-looking’, if you can imagine what that means—was staring right into my eyes with the most unusual expression on her face, all while effortlessly delivering her lecture for the rest of the class.

Back in awareness of reality, I realised I had been looking in the professor’s general direction the whole time my mind had been filled with lovey-dovey thoughts—and had likely been gazing directly into her eyes with a rather smitten, lovestruck expression for a really, really long time.

Thus, it seemed now, from her expression, she had somehow inferred I might be madly in love with HER.

I was startled, of course, and was just about dying from the embarrassment, bewilderment and awkwardness of that strange, strange moment, when just as suddenly, without warning…

… that professor looked my way again, while still going on and on about scriptwriting techniques, and gave me another look which, somehow, within a mere split second, managed to plant the idea in my mind that… she, proper and academic as she might look, might be attracted to women too.

Needless to say, I was dumbstruck for the rest of that class and forgot all about my crush for the rest of the day too.

That very professor would later offer me a ride home a few times after school, and I would go on to ask her for a ride to school a few other times…

Though nothing romantic ended up happening between us, nor did we ever talk outright about our sexualities during those strange, awkwardly slow car rides, I did get an ‘A’ for scriptwriting without really trying (likely because I began hanging on to her every word from that day on), and her hair did get shorter as the months went by, while she simultaneously began wearing shirts more often than blouses.

A couple of years later, while on a date with the Dean of that school (which is another story better suited to Project Strange-Things-We-Say-Yes-To-Because-We’re-In-The-Closet), I found out that my dear scriptwriting professor had gone around “declaring herself a hardcore lesbian” (the Dean’s words, not mine).

I had to pretend so hard to look surprised.



by Anna Ferrara

Available in Kindle Unlimited

What would you do if you were raised Christian and also head over heels in love with someone of the same sex? In this horror story laden with multiple endings, supernatural events and many surprises, the fate of our protagonists will depend on the choices you make on their behalf.

How will you behave when life pushes you beyond the boundaries of what you and your religion know to be possible, or true? Would you put your trust in faith or love when that happens? Would you be able to survive?

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Anna Ferrara discovered the beauty of writing when in the throes of unrequited heartache while growing up as a closeted lesbian  in a conservative country. She has since put her experiences to good  use by writing five novels about the hardships, and wonders, of  female-female attraction.


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About TBM

TB Markinson is an American who's recently returned to the US after a seven-year stint in the UK and Ireland. When she isn't writing, she's traveling the world, watching sports on the telly, visiting pubs in New England, or reading. Not necessarily in that order. Her novels have hit Amazon bestseller lists for lesbian fiction and lesbian romance. She cohosts the Lesbians Who Write Podcast ( with Clare Lydon. TB also runs I Heart Lesfic (, a place for authors and fans of lesfic to come together to celebrate lesbian fiction.
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